letter 01.31.01

fuck. i came really fuckin' close to burning my brownies and tomorrow is sunday and i've an order for 14:00. i got 'em on the balcony to slow the hot effect fast. i may be forced to test them. if they are fucked, i'll have to buy gas station butter. 100% more money.

such adventures.

_peace duck stop_

grant. they are unfuckinbelievable. they might even be dangerous. it's almost so balanced that it's hard to define it at first. it says to try another taste. it's almost a chocolate candy. yet so soft and chewy. yummy. the ultimate in universal yummy. all ages. from the kids to the elderly. they all like it. to a point of local interest.

but we are not here to report on brownies. except to say it's amazing how much fun people have with brownies.

_peace duck stop_

mr. brownie.

nice thing about selling them fast is i can't eat as many. i ain't as fat as you but if my teeth weren't so old, i could be. cocaine is worse. you get dealing that and snorting too, you turn from yellow to blue. i don't like the stuff. by the time it gets to europe it's cut so often it's hardly coke no more. they likely had someone shot on the way. cia. it's a hard business. most big businesses are. heroin is a hard business. of course someone's gotta do it. as long as people want drugs. and they all do. maybe a few mennonites don't. and children.

it's everywhere. drugs, legal and illegal. illegal not because of no reason but regulating people. thc is still my favorite. coffee only seldom. it's too hard on the system. alcohol doesn't do me no good either.

so many things.

meaning, i think we started with none. just elements in motion. eventually coming to life. just recently coming to awareness. expecting meaning to be waiting for us. well it wasn't. it's our call. life, survival and love are meaningful parameters to the construction of meaning. love is a funny factor. it negates megalomania. there is no meaning in megalomania. i've explored the back streets. they are empty.

you might know that. some people don't. those with brutally hopeless desperate lives hope for more.

especially after they watch tv.

_peace duck stop_


letter 01.31.03