letter 01.30.02

i absolutely don't know what to say. more.

someone will read this and it will make sense to them. then. is that one of those. whatever. my grammar used to be close to perfect. now i go more for sentence abuse. for meaning distortion. it's fun. i often don't know what i've writ till it's wrote. it don't all make sense but at some level everything is whatever.

the waves bang on the shores, the rain washes the mountain away.

i only ever saw a harpy eagle once. i was in heaven that day and didn't realize it. but i felt and saw it.

i can't prove to no one this is heaven. especially with all the goings on. but i've seen it. it doesn't appear too much different from when i thought it was hell.

_peace duck stop_

i went to saskatoon once, twice. for a week each time to be with a lover. and she was working when i first got there. oh. did i tell you i'm a lesbian. so i went into a little restaurant and had a piece of blueberry pie, which she said was actually huckleberry. i had an in body experience. i was so aware that i was eating the most amazing blueberry pie, which was actually huckleberry. same as the wild blueberries in nova scotia or northern ontario. not too north.

in the world.

huckleberries are so small. the caviar of berries. and to have a piece of pie made of them. in a restaurant as comfortable to be in as my kitchen. i told her i would be coming through on the way back. would there be blueberry. huckleberry. pie. she would save me a piece.

i wasn't back for a couple months. i liked vancouver too much. so i had apple pie.

_peace duck stop_

while we're in the west, let's ream out the pricks, i wanted to say cocksuckers but i find cocksuckers a pretty thing and in appropriate for cursing. anyhow, now that oil is worth so much. alberta has about six billion dollars plus. so they'll wanna separate from canada. fuck you. that money has come out of the ground. it doesn't really belong to anyone. the oil industry is hung on war industry. both are disgusting. use the money to find new, clean energy. build universities to teach how to develop new industries.

farm hemp.

don't think you are done just 'cause it's booming now. oil is finite. war, hopefully as well. be mature with your new power alberta. show the world that canadians care about their children's future.

make a canada, canadians can be proud of and usaers can escape to.

canada is still a paradise. but talk to anyone working for environment canada and they'll admit it's fucked.

we aren't no different than our neighbors.

'sept a bit nicer and better hockey players.


love stan