So now, the Chinese say they are fully prepared to go to war with USA. Bet out of our water, kind of thing. And the cleaning lady is there next door by the smelly old drunk. His friend from up stairs pisses on the floor quite often because he gets blind drunk. They are a little disturbing since its our toilet they piss over. And we hear everything, shes now vacuuming and talking with him or them. Wiebke has her hair dryer a going. I dont need a hair dryer on account you could put my hair all in a tea cup. I should say that normally our neighbor is not that much trouble, just tedious. And Wiebke doesnt like the pools of piss. I had some other alliteration today that I though quite clever. But this cold front, its March 11th, wont go away. Its sunny but it was blasted cold. They have a warm front moving up slowly, well spring time, from Spain. But its going slow like a man with a beer belly riding a bicycle. They said that. Only in German Did I tell you I was here in German land. The cleaning lady told Wiebke she felt sorry for the two losers of this game. She pities the self-abusers. Its her own fault. Its all right to be kind though. Being ugly never helps. Anyhow. I sometimes think I enjoy my job. Im sure I would if I didnt have to go every day. Wiebke can be sweet. Shes waiting to take - anyway we go to a movie now.
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Again I have nothing to say. Its a poor condition for a writer. Fuckin pen. I hate not having 3 pens within arms reach. Luckily I had this one. Its green. I used to write to Franny with this one. Its almost empty. Like me. Being empty isnt so good. It might even be less good than being full of shit. I dont want to be a teenager, I enjoy having some awareness, but I dont know if I like this rapid galloping towards old age. And I was thinking about things like what about getting frozen when youre dead and then when they have the technology, they can bring you back. They seem to be able to do most anything, those they people. But what I wondered about was if such a thing did become possible and the world isnt dead, for that would make coming back to life pointless, what would the being be that they brought back. If that being was me when it was dead, or you if youd like to also extrapolate, would it be me when it was recreated. What actually is a me. I seem to view the world and things in it and out of it from this point and I have thought about whatnot. It strikes me odd sometimes that Im a me. Not that I dont think everyone else isnt, but is it something that can be frozen then thawed again? I doubt everything so Ill also doubt this point. Ill have paid all this money I dont have to have my head frozen, heads are cheaper than whole bodies, and some fucker will probably have to start a new consciousness at 60 or 80 years of age with a new body they built for him out of my money. But I dont know. Maybe I would still be me. Even though I dont even feel like it most of the time when I havent even been dead, that I can remember. I didnt even wash after work, table tennis and bow and arrow time. Not even my face. Im going to do my face now. Better. Another thing that pisses me off other than soon being dead or alive and not me or immortal and extremely bored, is that the fucker in charge of sending us weather havent got around to sending this winter shit away. Its April in 3 days. I am also sad that I probably offended you in my last letter and you have written me off. I miss Wiebke tonight as well. Its good to miss her once in a while. Shell be back soon. In the next few days or a week. I dont know, Krissy. Tomorrow Im going to try to stay busy and not allow myself to reflect too much. Reflected darkness. Think about it. I can see why people kill themselves. Ive got it pretty good and I sometimes wonder why I bother. Other people. Cigarettes. Thats my cigarette brand name if I can get a company to sponsor me, which is unlikely since I wont bother to tell of the idea. OP cigarettes. Other Peoples. Buy your own cigarettes and smoke Other Peoples. I smoke Other Peoples cigarettes. Hey, can I bum a smoke. You could, but I smoke . . . you can see the add campaign. Wiebke called. She misses me and is coming home Wed. I hate being told what to do, especially if its more than once. And Wiebke doesnt understand it and I explain it to her. Anyhow. I either have to shit or sleep so Ill try sleep. Its simpler.
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When Im rich, sometime this Century, pretty bold to say in 96, Im gonna buy me an island and build a diesel powered clean air generator. Thats when Ill be finally happy.
I told Mauro that if people dont buy my first 4 novels, Ill write one of those shit stuffing murder sex books that people like. Then theyll wanna read more and will go buy the others and maybe theyll learn their lesson, those work all day, wanna be spoon fed mindless entertainment not enveloping thinking kind of people that could vary well use their thick heads if they flushed some of the shit out, kind of people. Was that a sentence of something a little less than coherent. I can let the last redundant clause out and the sentence would be fine. Sometimes, when I embark on a lengthy sentence that if proposing to explain all around an idea without breaking away for a stop so as to get a unit feel to a particular explanation, I forget where I had started by the time I have wandered long past the point where I most properly should have completed the run-onness of a babbling work of a tedious mind drain, often loosely referred to as a sentence. Finally a period. In German, it would be worse. They usually wait till the end of a sentence to spring the verb on you. Watch if you see someone translating German to English. The German will elegantly spew out his shit and the translator will wait with anticipation as though she doesnt understand, Hey, whats he saying? someone yells. She yells back, Shut up, you ignorant inbred mountain goat, Im waiting for the fuckin verb.
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While I was deciding to tell you I had Egyptian blood, I almost bit my tongue off. My Grandfather might tell me someone was trying to tell me something. But aside from English, German, Irish, Scottish, likely a little North American Indian, who knows what all and most of us have a little African form slave times in America, theres Jewish in there. At least the name suggests it. Anyhow the Jews were slaves in Egypt for quite a long stint. Need I say more. (PS apparently there is no historical proof of this, they where slaves in Babylon though)
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Its now the eve of April 1st. Im not sure if I start with the scab in the middle of my tongue, or the stinky neighbor. Did I mention him before? He smells and is an alcoholic who drinks always. Beer mostly, sometimes wine. His skin is dry. I know this because he leaves flakes of it on the toilet seat sometimes. Why is he on our toilet seat? Because we have one toilet for the two apartments. That is a bit of a pain in the ass, especially now that he has cable. Now, with added entertainment, the drunk from upstairs often comes down and pisses on the toilet and floor and adds to the smell. And its the one shitty thing about this otherwise quite excellent place.
Poverty sucks.
I dont believe I have a theme to go on, so till later, Krissy.
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Before I go back to my breakfast, I have to tell you of my dream. I found myself back in Toronto as I had the night before in my dream. I was back on Augusta St. but the place was different. The sound of the pump, which was real. was driving me batty and I woke up in my small room. the back door of my room looked out to the hall that went to the fire escape and up to the kitchen. My other door went out to the living-room, where I went. The people were watching TV and in the kitchen 15 people sat waiting for the one bathroom. None of them lived there. It was the day after a party. I wanted to leave and maybe take a shower at Brents place, or Darrells place, but neither of them lived where they used to live and I could only remember my phone number from Germany and Tobys and Nevins. I explained these things to one of the ugly girls. She could see I was lonely. She laid down on the coach beside me but didnt attempt anything beyond a little comfort, which I accepted.
I dont remember beyond that but its a common dream to be back alone in Toronto. Especially when Wiebke is not here. Shes back in two days though. I try not to mess her and enjoy my aloneness, but I think I feel much better with her around. We had some very personal sex in my dream last night. I wont trouble you with details. Till later.
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We, I mean Wiebke and I. I will try to avoid sexual fantasies with you unless you tell me you dont mind. Hell, at my age, what am I gonna do - oh, I gotta go meet Mauro. And Chinsia and I are going north to Lubeck tomorrow to joint Wiebke and all the others to go to Andis 30th Birthday party. So see ya.
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Its silly to start writing now at 05:23 when people are going to be here soon. But I was thinking about the rainy night I ate too many mushrooms at Geoffs and my Dad brought me home and I dont know what he thought but I was very out of my tree and I didnt sleep the whole night because I couldnt and I was afraid Id die if they got me to sleep. Those not at all nice they. In the morning around this horrible hour, I had to get up and go work in a grave yard. Heres someone.
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Some things have come to my mind. Most of them only make it more messy. I miss my friends and they dont mess me, that makes me sad and that makes me mad. I also still wonder what the fuck people, I mean us humans here, think were fuckin doing. I hope we dont think we are pretty smart. What I see makes me think we are pretty lost. And what nonsense do we hang on to. Example, TV and Jesus. We want to believe as much bullshit as possible so we arent left alone with our brains. People believe in any-thing. Tell them someone died on the cross for their sins, they say, oh cool. Im in. They wont ask what a sin is and if Jesus did anything at all worthy of notation in his life. And fashions the same. We believe things. And I dont wanna right or write it so I stop. I sleep.
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The trouble with dreams, Krissy, is that when you try to use words to explain them, it doesnt work. Words usually have a more restricted time motion continuum, where as dreams are more of a collected time. At least I think so now. I dont know if I thought so before. One of my dreams last night (I feel I should be telling Dr. Mike) we (Im not certain who the we was) were in a mountain town and wanted to take the stairs down. They went down and down. We started with some old people in front of us who went very slowly. The stairs kept getting steeper and thinner and eventually they seemed to disappear and there was nowhere to go and the stairwell was so unbelievable deep. Someone dropped a soccer ball down and it took such a long time to hit the bottom. When it finally did, it came all the way up to where we were and fell down again. I think two girls down there played with it when it stopped bouncing up so high.
We went up again and met a blond hared man that told us we could make lots of money if we wanted to. We found out he was the owner of the elevator that went down to the town that seemed so far under. We were to meet him. We went to the house first where the woman with us, kept her things. She wanted something as evidence. The man happened upon us and the young woman handed us a camera with 30 or the 36 pictures already shot. She also wanted to change her ear rings. Neither was necessary but she wanted the man to not suspect that we suspected him.
This is what we suspected; the stairs were purposely left in disorder so he could make money with his modern electric elevator. Another thing I suspected was that the stair well or hole that went down, was not as deep as we were lead to believe. The soccer ball was a trick with air pressure used below to slow the fall of the ball to give the illusion of a greater distance. Well its breakfast time. So see ya.
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We came home last night after our little party at Andi and Mauros. We ate well. I was cautious not to over eat. I dont fit into my motorcycle leather pants anymore. Himmelfart is in 2 weeks. Thats just after my 36th birthday. Im so old and I dont hardly remember getting here. I hardly even remember hockey. And on the road was an Igel, I think we call them hedgehogs. They are quite sweat. Miniature porcupines. Which of course reminds me of the ride down the mountain in BC with the four French guys that stuffed us into there small car. One guy was excitedly calling out for a porcupine. He was hoping for a sighting.
The Igel, I sounds like E, and E sound like a short A, was dead. Still is dead. And I think it was pregnant. And I think it was hit by one of the blind Germans that drive 60 in a 30 zone because they dont care about any stupid Igel or children or people sleeping, or old ladies walking their dogs.
But the hole point of this entry is to attempt to explain my dream. Wiebke was a little frustrated with me when I went to sleep. And Im going to be sad today as well. Maybe even depressed if I can keep people from making joke with them.
It all started when my friend wanted to evolve and breed an animal. It seemed to me like a theoretic experiment with miniature cows that looked a little like sheep-pigs. Anyhow, he took one female out of the circle and bred it with one of the first creatures. He, my friend, lost interest after that and was doing other things. But a pretty insect looking thing had come of his manipulations. I was concerned there might be a reason not to let it away so I went to get a large jar. My friend had already had it in a small gar when I returned. He dropped the small jar into the bigger one. Then he went off again while I watched the thing grow. It had wings unbelievable large, like that of a bat. And it kept growing and was soon to big for the jar and it was struggling and screaming. It would soon kill itself if I didnt let it out. I didnt want to but I didnt want the one creature of its kind to die. I stopped holding the lid on and the creature burst out. I managed to get it into the bathroom before it turned into a hairless, reptilian looking, fighting rat-dog. It was fierce looking with its many teeth and obvious lack of instinct and its complete frantic unknowing of what it was or what to do. It scarred me. I shut the door. I pie - oh shit. Its quarter to. Im gonna be late.
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Im excited about our new sofa. The French style. Whats it called? Sasawn or season. You know the one with one side higher than the other. But with a back. And its comfortable, green all most new though Im sure its old cause of the condition of the lacquer on the wood and it has the price of 20 marks. Dietric lets people who wok at the Centrum have things cheaper. And if he especially likes you, like he likes me, you might get away with paying even less than your work mates. I dont like the idea of giving them money on account I know a few things about how things operate at this work place. Same idea as how governments work. Although a much smaller scale. Governments take money right out of your pay to piss away as they please. And another thing that tends to happen with governments as they work for the well to do and wealthy, which helps the money raise to the top. And I just thought about one of the rich women in America. Shes one of the first people into New Skin, or the top banana even. She was talking at a pep rally I had attended. The weekend was dedicated to convincing us pinheads that Nu Skin was the cats ass, as they say. I was trying to believe them. Sometimes I try believing in things. This woman of wealth had a little thing to say for us in the opening evening informal meeting. She was telling her story how she started out selling horse grease or something door to door when she was a little girl. And she made her and the other few money makers of Nu Skin look like heroes. And one thing she said was; she could see nothing wrong with someone becoming as rich as they can. Something like that. And sure shes right. But I realized that most of the people wouldnt and their lame hope for it was what was making her rich. And when I caught her eyes afterwards, I wasnt sure if I liked to be part of the Nu Skin cult. I had tried to think it wasnt a cult but when my man above me in this money to the top pyramid, one of the best there is by the way, tried to get me to switch to another product line with electric finger nail ovens, anti fat cream and plastic rap and products that warned if fir grew on you tongue to stop use, I had to abandon the nerve your friends with your out of character, gun-ho afraid to be over 40 products. Another thing they liked to do was say dont quit your job, but give examples of people making money out of control that wouldnt have to ever work again. And why am I talking about this? Everything I was involved with, with Steve, helped me to lose money. This wonderful stock he got all his friends to buy is at a nickel and going under. And it is after 2 and the sun is shining so what about that? And Im sure that they forgot to wake up to buy something to grill. Though they want a grill party. I want a girl.
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Oh, by the way, as they say, as I was listening to the Kinks today I remembered a co-worker from Santa Fe. You know the one I wanted to have love me but like you, thought I was out to dinner. Victoria. And now I go to barbecue.
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So much for attempting to have a nap. Maybe it was the coffee at De Lorenzos Eiscafe. At any rate, so they say, it came to pass that we had a yummy barbecue. Wahnsin amounts of dead bovine. And wine. And Timon and I lasted the longest. I was the least drunk. I sometimes want to get drunk but I cant drink so well. Anyhow, at 4:30 we packed it in after the fire was mostly out. I slept on Sonjas floor. I was thinking, if I had had sex with her, which crossed my mind but so does sex with camels, not that Sonja is anything like a camel except for her two large humps, could I lie to this book. If it was a journal, which it aint really now, is it, I would have to tell the naked truth, if there was some but with this book, which fails to fall snugly into a category, I could actually make things up if I wanted to. I could tell you I had sex with two complete strangers last night, describe all the fabricated details about how the woman was a sexy late 20s, shapely, beautiful Philippine woman that spoke no English or German but loved men exactly like me, and I like that in a woman and her man was a world champion table tennis muscular man that spoke forty languages, was from Hong Kong and had the most beautiful penis to go with his hard body that I found it distracting to have to satisfy the hunger of the woman for Angst that I should miss out on the mans begging erection. Luckily we arranged ourselves so that my penis was mostly in the anal of the woman and his penis was mostly deep in my throat. In fact, thats how I awoke in the late morning. I didnt move until they were both awake. Shit, I better change the sheets before Wiebke gets home. The woman was so wet from having two men on her, that theres a large dried up wet spot where her sweet, soft vagina came to rest. The real terrible thing about the whole evening is that I will likely never see them again as long as we all live. I dont even know their names. Ill never forget their flavour.
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Sometimes I get the feeling my babys gonna leave me. When she goes away three days at a time. When shes given her loving to another man. I dont feel like shes any longer mine. I feel my woman has left me. Oh, I have to finish with this attempt at a song on account she came home. Well have to see how things go. And whats up and things. Maybe Ill sing the blues tomorrow.
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Its already time to go to work. I had a nap from 9:00 till 11:00 last night, got up and went to bed. I could have gone to sleep but Wiebke didnt want to be ignored. As well as all that, this is the last time I sit on this coach. We get, I bring, the new old one today. I have to write a few letters as well. What a life of action I have. I have to write a summary of my book. The book that starts with our hero lost in space. He slowly recaptures his memory and finds himself in a strange forest. A forest with little sounds. When he is ready, he sets out to search for his ship. Before he finds it, he is found by the aliens. The aliens are mild and gentle. They are even apathetic. He gets to know one of the few young ones, sees the monstrous city that had once housed billions of people. It now houses a few thousand even though it continues in operation.
Well he wants to get back home. His alien girlfriend comes with him and they land in Floridas Disneyland. Soon after the adventure starts, eight years lost, we see that America is a little different. Ive got to go to work now. Krissy, you write me a letter.
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The sofa is excellent. Most everything is okay except that Ive been consumed by this dreadful heaviness that makes everything seem lame and tedious. I see only insincerity and pain in people. This whole business of entertainment and having fun is time lost. But what else is there? And I cant even make myself clear. Im only angry and have no patience. I must sleep now and my wife wants to rock n roll. Fuck fuck fuck.
By the way, its two days later and I feel real good. Therefore, I have nothing to say. At least no cutting sarcasm. What I think I really want to do, is finish about ten books, thatll be enough, then form a blues band. A rockin one. Or be a fisher man. Wiebke doesnt want to live in Nova Scotia. I cant say as I blame her. What with her prettiness to show off and fun to have. But I want to hide away somewhere. Maybe the south of France is all right as well if you, I mean me in this case of the use of you, dont understand French and arent leaning toward right wing hate politics. If history has any truth, there are a few problems with such politics. Politics that lead to the rich getting rich and the poor having nothing and eventually even less. Ive never cared much about money, but Ive not enjoyed times when I couldnt eat. For me, it was always within my means to change my situation. Anyhow. Ive got to take a shit. Oh, which reminds me, my dreams were a little nutty last night. We had decided to be anal after the ironing was done but then company came and they wanted to be naked and have conversations, which seemed moderately important but not as memorable as her breast. Weird, aint it? Tits. Most of the men I know, except maybe one or two that dont go for that sort of nonsense, think tits are pretty neat things. Well piss in my sock, its time to get a wiggle on. The hobel machine and swing sander are waiting to be neglected. See ya, lovely.
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Here I am in Koln. An old Roman settlement with many stories about power struggle, French and secularism and how its still pretty Catholic and Im in a Nunnery now. They rent out rooms. And our work place brought us here and pays for every thing including 3 days work. Which seems awful generous. They have a church down town Id like to see. It took 632 years to build it. The Dom. Its fuckin huge. I have to go pee. Soon we eat so Ill go see about that. Itll be a light meal. And its raining but not out of control. So tonight well go do things.
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Its time to go to sleep now, Krissy. After a few hours of walking, I think Im tired enough. I showered the bar smell off me now Im all fresh. I suppose I could say things but Im not going to.
Krissy. I want to make myself clear. Thats why I struggle with trying to write. But its a stressful battle because what Im trying to get at, understand and explain, isnt really there and I have to create it to give me the gob of looking for it. And since its imaginary its not easy to put into simple words. Im a little antisocial sometimes because I have a hang up with the human condition. What I mean is that Im sometimes, especially after sex, not happy with flesh. Bryan used to say, that 30 seconds of clarity, after an orgasm. Maybe its quite natural not to like sex in, in what? A big bowl of fish guts? Whats the point here? Whatever. Ill come back another time.
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The worst thing, well almost, depending on point of view and preferences, is boredom. Boredom leads to uneasiness. Then trouble is there waiting to spring to the aid. I get bored with my life every few years. So its time for a new one. Im not sure what will change, except that on Wednesday Ill be 4 years away from 40. Then what do I do? I havent really started my life yet and Im about to be going down hill. As they say. Whatever. In 50 years it wont matter. I miss you Krissy. I would like to come sit in your kitchen and have a tea. Maybe when we are older and sexual tension is gone. Im starting to be more and more disappointed with sexual obsession. I dont mind sex sometimes but I cant see the madness of looking for the - whatever. Good night.
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Gold Fish is a good name for a band. Or Lizard Fish. Fish Lizard. Last Lizards. Raging Reptiles. Free Masons. Remote Control. Another Fucked Religion. Bad Black Buzzard. Burning Buzzard. Jesus Junkies. Theres an endless possibility. Maybe I could have a job giving names to Rock n Roll bands.
Its near the end of June now and were going up to Roskilde in a couple days. 4 days straight of Rock n Roll and a few other things. Im a little excited. I even made a 6 meter flag pole that I can screw together. And I made a flag the shape of my bunny.
I have another 6 months of work ahead of me and thats actually okay. The work place is pretty well perfect. Absolute no stress. Im writing my first book one more last time. Well, Krissy, theres no time for talk about things like kids eating children cause they say it on their video. I might get to it another day.
Its late Aug 14 now. Thought Id say hello. I miss your correspondence. I feel like Ive lost another friend. Ive lost most of my friends. Amer phoned last month and Geoff and Brian writes sometimes but thats about it. Brent probably never wrote a letter.
I was thinking about a young woman. It was back in Canada when I still ate at Mc Whats-his-names the odd time. She was so sweet and I got the feeling, for those few moments that we stood across form each other that we were friends or even lovers. She didnt ask me to pay for my food. I waited a few more seconds but it was clear that she wanted me to have it as a little present. I likely would never recognize her if we met but Ill always remember those few moments that we were friends.
I wanted to tell you about Michelle McTurk. She was in my dream. But I cant remember except that I think shes really excellent. And I cant write right now cause I have to deal with my woman.
Its tomorrow now. I have nothing to say but I thought Id like to write about it. I fell into a heavy depression. It took me into everything sucks mood. Its about to lighten up. If I can hold out for a few hours, I should get back to my equilibrium state. That somewhere around neurotic schizophrenia and slug complacency. Part of my trouble is that I have no friends in this town. Ive a couple acquaintances but theres no Taquir or someone that I was - ja well. Whats scary though is that if I moved back to Canada, people would have other lives now. Id be just as sad and lonely. School and work can be of some relief. Alexis and Eva correspond occasionally as well. Okay, Ill stop this babble. Ill try go have some fun later. Sometimes that helps. And
I dont know much about Dole but what I saw on the news today made me think that the book I wrote will no longer be suitable for the fiction section. If the Americans vote him in, they are dumber than I give them credit for. As far as I can see, hes promising a Military State. I wont go as far as to say he planted the bomb at Atlanta as a ploy to under grade his opponent, but hes used it well. The trouble with selling yourself to the stupidity of people is that it works. People in general are stone dumb. They dont much know the difference between their ass and fucking a chicken. Couldnt think of a proper analogy. Im sure Americans dont want me telling them how stupid they are so Ill let it go. They are no stupider than any other nation. Not really. Just a different breed of stupidity. And of course, usually only 90% of a nation is stupid. Whatever.
I had some foolish things to say but I forgot what they were. Ill tell you that Nevin is coming back in two months. She and Toby wen to England. They dont like it so much. England doesnt work so well. I dont think it has anything to do with the diseased cows and sheep and milk and cheese and gummy bears and almost anything you might want to eat. Its just too expensive and doesnt run well.
Our neighbor is a swine. He lives, smells and sounds like a swine. He just aint as cute. His piss on the floor friend from up stairs stinks even more. They like getting drunk and other than that they like to drink a lot. (a lot is very much) Hes bellowing now. I can see me being dam old soon.
Its Sept 12, 96. My wife gets me on my nuts sometimes. But Im not going to flip about it. Shes out of control. Hormones or something.
The thing is, sometimes I dont want to be told what to do endlessly. Ass a matter of fact, I hate it. It could be why Im going to become an assassin. A good way to blow off steam, as they say.
Anyhow, were going to fly to Mallorca. Its a one and a half hour trip from Saarbrucken airport.
I packed and empty book in case I feel like writing. You see, this one has only a few pages left.
Unless I write very big, I wont fill this tonight. Especially since I have nothing worth recording. My dreams are sometimes pretty cool, but I usually forget them before I think to write them down. And its almost impossible to explain them how they were.
Id like something yummy to eat.
Im less than 80 kilos finally. I was up to 83. So big is this not but its a bad trend to slip into, this gaining weight, not caring any more, being depressed, hating everything, wonder why one bothers with anything.
Thats the trouble with being disillusioned, there aint much left when the mirage fades to black. But what can you do, when its gone it cant be rebuilt. Thats why assholes like me are shot. I want to shatter peoples illusions. Without illusions the minds left in a void.
I want to believe theres some where to go from there so I push myself if I sink into that, why the fuck bother hole. Its there that I really dont want anything to do with anything. Humans especially.
But I do like making things with wood. From wood. Out of wood. Sometimes I like music or writing. Or a sunny day. Maybe I stop this now.
Ive established that Ive nothing to say. So well not belabour the point. So Krissy. Sleep good. Tonight Im going to think of you and the little one.
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The thing is, Krissy, Ive only 3 months of work when I come back. Then Ive gotta worry about things. What things, I dont know. Ive got to hurry up now and be sweet to my wife or shell flip. "Cause were all going on a summer holiday. And she gets pretty excited.
Its fucking 6 degrees C and the summer aint even over. Im signing off. I might die today so in case you get this somehow which is unlikely, they just get rid of things when people die, I want you to think fondly of me and tell your daughter about what a nice guy I am. And stuff like that. Well, see
ya.
by Joanne B. Washington
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