anny howard

HOW WE SEE IT

JOYFUL PHILOSOPHY

 

chapter 10

In the last 10 years I've had one on the boarder to serious relationship and before that a little secret affair. Which if I talk about will seem inappropriate and it ain't that I wouldn't love to. The point is, I've been extremely single too much. I'm used to it. It seems normal to live alone.

If you're a fuckin' spider.

So let's talk of more happy days. Back when I was living in Toronto and had two girlfriends. Both super serious. Well, the one girl was really cool. It was like being a simple animal. She had black hair and lived on the west side. The other girl was on the east side. And the King St. car would take me to one place or the other and our warehouse space, Brent's Flat, I had invaded it after being evicted from the stink hole I lived in. They renovated and raised the rent. The new owner. From Hong Kong. The Land Lady bought the thing with her dead husband's money and made big cash selling 2 years later.

If I would have been a little smarter, I would have, well, it hardly matters. And I think I ain't that good at fiction and have used most of my life events in the stories I write. So now it just seems trite. Which is no way to remember events.

And this sentence is simply to finish the page in this book.

chapter 11

Of all the books I've read, there is no question that Jesus is my favourite character. Like all, or most, characters in stories, they are based on someone real. We have been told that the new testament is the story of Jesus Christ Lord and Saviour of the world. Well, in a way, he really is. His protagonist is Moses. And his real fuckin' big and powerful army. An army that has survived thousands of years defending the Laws of a psychotic, mass murderer, slave driving, military dictator. A decree made against all Gentiles. Forever.

Things have changed. Most of the Army doesn't fight. After they nailed Jesus Christ on a cross forever. As a reminder never to attempt to be him. A warning against those who might come a couple thousand years later.

Well, the book is not holy but we have made it our theater. The Synagogue and the Church looked different from one another but it was simply an update. The Christian became the animals more special and ate from the same plate.

I'm thinking this may seem all a little confusing. But the story is, I have tryed to understand Jesus with the theory in mind that if he was real and God, thus Religion, was not, what would the guy be like.

He'd be a sucker for women and they would motivate him to approach the obvious problem of the elite using the most of the world as slaves. And making a disgusting horror story into the foundation of the slaves' perception of the universe.

In an attempt to hide the universe from them. Hide billions of years of evolution from energy to mass-energy. To heavy elements, still energy locked in a system.

One thing that fascinates me is how obviously tragic it is to make a religion from a horror story.

One can not fail to notice this if one reads the bloody thing. But no one really does. They are too busy working and buying shit they kill for. We are fuckin' scary mad monsters.

And Moses was such a fuckin' prick. And he was a fuckin' prick that knew he was a fuckin' prick. He never hid his anger. He used it freely to kill anyone who dared question him or be a Gentile. He mocked his brother, raped his wife to make two bastards of his own, killed the sons of Aaron and publicly mocked him, threw the bodies out in the trash.

He was insane. A mocking brat that was still very pissed off that his father was his grandfather raped his mother, the Pharaoh's daughter. An inbred Egyptian takes 600,000 soldiers and the plunder of Egypt. A few million slaves. He fuckin' up and takes millions of Hebrew slaves and makes an uneducated pack of hungry sun dried child killing and raping soldiers.

Holy. Is this some kind of practical joke. Holy Shit. Not only is the story a big fuckin' horror trip. It's true. We are slaves and no one thinks anything of it.

"I work like a slave."

"You're lucky you got a job."

Jews, Christians, Moslems. What is that. Do you people ever stop to read your holy books. Bloody Hell. Can't you see they have made us into slaves.

"So you're an anarchist."

I'm fuckin' Jesus Christ.

Most days.

chapter 12

And the daughter of Lord Moses, Jewlie, shall be the first prostitute and her first daughter Christie shall be the second prostitute of the western world war machine. The operators get fed the most. The younger sister Islamie can be the prostitute of the Arabs.

This is very silly game. We can definitely think up something better than eternal war. Sides. Fuck.


chapters 13 - 15